Warning: The post is a litle long, but give it a chance to inspire you.
Today i woke up very early in the morning like 4:30 , and i could not sleep again, so i decided to wake up and spend some time with God, and as i was listen to Joyce Meyer when she was preaching about choosing to love and treat others with kindness, i remembered the day when i checked myself or got checked up by God, either way i had a moment with myself i realised that i could actualy choose to be kind to others. I had the power to do so, even though it was going to be uncomfortable for a season, i talked myself into doing so. Maybe you think that being nice to people is a basic thing to do, but no it's not. Some people are gifted with being naturaly nice, and some of us have to choose to be nice evryday haha this is real talk yall, it can be hard sometimes, expecialy to some people. But you are the one who chooses to do different. Now i am going to tell you a story where i actualy decided that despite what i feel, i am going to CHOOSE kindness.
Before i used to be rude to my big sister just for no reason. Just because i felt like it, you know how litle sisters can be lol Once we disagreed about something, i could be really petty and shady to the core, i know i am not proud of it, and because i have a very strong and stubborn personality i just couldn't go without having the last word. But the thing is i always regreted it after, because i remember asking myself everytime why i had to act like that, but i never said i am sorry, like the african girl i am, those who know...knows how hard it is for my african people to say sorry hahahha. But one day i checked myself and asked myself why, and i came up with an answer or it was like God put that on my heart saying " You are jealous of her kindness" that is why you act the way you do. You wish you were more like her. And guys that was sooo true. I admire how my sister is so kind, calm and just all put together, her personality is just sweet (and just know that i will never say this to her face, so she can read this here hahaha). I am not saying that i am not nice, but our personalities are very different. I am outgoing, feisty and a litle crazy, and even my friends use to say that we are so different, but i kinda love that, because we both can't have a crazy personality at the same time, and my other sister is as feisty as i am so someone needs to be calm lol. The point is that from there i decided to be more like her instead. I chose to be kind to people, even when they din't deserve it sometimes. So my advice to you is whenever you feel some type of way, just ask yourself and God why, because you might be blind to the anwser, and please act on whatever it is, don't be stubborn and refuse to change. So stay Kind.